I don't know why I'm always thinking about you lately. It really hurts me, you know. Why don't you just go away from my mind ?! Forever !! I'm always mumbling it over and over again. But your shadow always follow me and said :
" Every time I do, you call me back " or
" Ok, if you want me too... But I will back later " or the most frustrating,
" Cannot ! You're stuck with me, eh ! "
Gosh !
♦ I hate my self for being in love with you ♦
This starts from the day when you took me to the beach. I feel safe when I'm with you and makes me believe that you're the one who I'm looking for, the one that I've been waiting for. I think we both feel that feelings. We both feel that something good was happened between us. Because you show it clearly to me, though without the statement.
But then I was wrong. Totally wrong. I found the fact that it was too late.. I can't get you out of my mind.. I'm already thinking about you. Very deep.
♦ I hate my self for being in love with you ♦
I'm looking for a lover not a friend.
Someone who can be there when I need someone to talk to.
Someone who listens.
Someone who understand how I feel.
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend,
Not afraid to say the way he feels about me.
Wants to share, show he cares.
Someone who can keep me real and knows the way.
Someone who wont take me for granted.
Someone I can call who isn't affraid of love to share.
But I didn't get it from you. It makes me really upset. You are too busy with your stuff and your world so you didn't noticed me at all. You didn't realize my feelings. But I can't deny this, I can't forget you.
Sometimes I wonderin'.. maybe you left me because I'm being too hard to get ... ? It's just one of my defenses, you know... Sucks !! Or maybe you can't accept my attitude which is too close with my male friends. Yeaa.. as you still conservative. Well, I don't know... Let this be a secret that will never be answered.
Really !! I hate my self for being in love with you..
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